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Monday, December 10, 2007

LTF CAMP! it was really a fulfilling and edifying 5 days! the theme was Loving Fellow Sheep. :D
031207
so i reached church with jamie james rachel esther whom i met along the way there! (: paid my camp fees and then went to put my stuff in my dorm, fek room 2. caritas ashley esther ruth tab sandy and my sis was in the same dorm as me.. :D so then we had a briefing by the camp commandant, longzhao. icebreakers next! through the memory verse thing, i found my groupmates and i got to know my games group better, people i never talked to much or i never even knew existed :/ but it was a good opportunity for me to talk now (: even though it got quite discouraging at first, after talkng to shuyi and nadia and the rest, i was really encouraged and the Lord gave me strength to carry on, which i did! (: then we had lunch and we sat together as a cg which was bad after looking back now..then siesta where we just packed stuff and talked somemore rubbish. we had our first message by Rev. Jack Sin and i found the message really good and that was when i learnt the true meaning of fellowship (to do things together that are Christ-centred and not playing captain's ball etc) memory verse was "But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship one with another and the blood of Jesus Christ our Lord cleanseth us from all sin" yay memorised! (: next we broke into our discussion groups..mine was called Asher with most of the bfg people inside and my resolution was to know 10 people which makes 2 each day..then games! where we played chess like real people. i got the castle multiple time and never the king/queen. haha then washup where i discovered the shower in the children's toilet and it has been my sunbathing place for the whole camp cos the sun shines through the windows! :D workshop by Aunty Poh Yok was about fellowship and we had angel clay to make something but we didnt know that the colour could come out and so we mashed up the whole thing and it became an ugly heart that look like stone ): then they made my present it ): but i learnt alot through that interesting workshop too! that fellowship helps us to become more Christ-like just like iron sharpeneth iron. supper, dorm d and lights out!

041207
woke up, did QT and me and sandy had a lot of time left and so we walked around doing nothing and talking a bit. then finally it was breakfast followed by Uncle KK's devotion. we continued with the 2nd message and memory verse was "He that saith he abideth in Him ought also so to walk, even as he walked" memorised tooo! :D discussions where we decided to fellowship more and so during lunch we split up and sat at different tables. becky said she was really proud of us (: but in the end the camp comm played blow wind blow to mix everybody up! really really happy to see girls talkign to guys and vice versa for once! and talking about spiritual things somemore. but i got to know people like charles etc. (: world trade game! my games group and deb + joshua chia's group allianced so it was peru + malaysia. in the end afte much fun and cooperation (; we reached the supposedly unreachable target! :D yay rj brains mahh. i ralised how selfish paople could be and yet how nice others could be! (: then washup dinner and prayer meeting..it was the first i ever attended and i think it was really beneficial so i think i'll try to make it next time! during supper me shuyi and sandy shared some really personal stuff that was happening and we tried to encourage each other. Thank God that in the end all turned out well..then charmaine came and we fellowshipped about clothes (: came late for dorm d as usual and lights up was late too. almost couldnt brush my teeth cos the guys alr started toilet-cleaning! :/

051207
did my QT at the stone table outside and it was really cool and the birds were chirping (: and for once my QT was 45mins! :Dhad breakfast where joshualim and mitch were extremely funny and devotion on taming our tongues which i learnt through my own experience during the camp that it is really easy to gossip so from now, i'll pray for God's strength to NOT gossip. message no 3. and memory verse was My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth". discussions and then lunch where we had blow wind blow and we really fellowshipped cos lz and joshua were both at the table..had a really edifying time over a meal for once (: was really happy. talked about what we learnt and our resolutions. had workshop on peer pressure and as i was doing the quiz thing, i realised how much i was affected by my friends. we played a horrible dirty game where i put my cheek into mashed bananas plus herbs and then drank beetroot plus herbs etc drink yuckyuck. through this, i got the fact that there's positive and negative peer pressure..then carolling prac where im in alto cos i cant reach the really high notes. washup where we continued singing while waiting (: then message 4 with "Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent His son to be the propitiation for our sins" as the memory verse. we then had a really serious discussion where becky made us reflect on what made us assured of our salvation. mine was God's presence in my life like He would chastise me whenever i went astray through pain etc so i would turn back (: supper dorm d and lights out, late as usual :D

061207
QT at the stone table inside as it was raining but the birds were still chirping :D and i got really engrossed in the internet handout thingy and so my QT was 45mins again! (: then breakfast and devotion where we are supposed to be consistent in our walk which i feel is really difficult. :/ the last message of the camp and then discussions where we asked 24375286 questions and Rev. Jack Sin had to answer them all. but i gained a lot of knowledge and cleared my doubts over philo and movies and abnormal happenings (like ghosts) we continued over lunch hahaha and now we have to type out all our questions plus his answers and references! carolling prac again (: and then water games! got really wet for the playground one..next was the maze where our group kind of cheated accidentally cos we didnt know how to walk :/ then was the broomstick thing where the objective was just to make us get wet! so lz just poured water over everyone! then soap table which was overally fun and the string thing. then water bomb fight! we allianced as usual! but ended up bombing everyone! (: and some people *cough cough* poured pails of water over me.. ); then had bbq and waited 2h for my turn to bathe.. ): then we had testimonies (really good and encouraging ones) and thanksgiving plus a funny slideshow. i realised God's providene in the camp like when longzhao said that it rained on weds when we had no games at all and that all turned out well in the end even though at first they faced lots of obstacles. (: and also since there was the scaffolding the guys couldnt play any ball games and we could only sit down and properly fellowship! (: had a little bit of games and singing at the playgroud under the night sky! (: i slept at almost 6am! (: and couldnt get up the next day.

071207
didnt do my QT which i did when i got home and went straight for a quick breakfast. then it was like a closure time and someone chose the welcome song for the second last song for the camp hahahaha. so we sang it over a good laugh. xD then help mop and sweep and clean up and spray lysol :D then i cabbed home with my sis and rachel..and slept for a good 6h!

i think that it was really nice but not nice camp. there was good fellowship and messages and discussions but there was a lot of emo-ing and crying and sadness going on too ): there was definitely a lot of silence on the last night this time when last year it was really noisy..but i drew closer somemore to God so i guess it overally good! (: i learnt also the importance of sharing with fellow Christian brethren as it was only through this that i could gain the strength i needed and the comfort as well. i learned to open up and step out of my usual comfort zone and talk to people not in my cg. and i hope my thirst for His word during this camp won't fade away and we'll continue the fellowship during LTF meetings!

had batam meeting on sat and sun. we painted stuff on sat and i fellowshipped with shuyi! on sun the sanctuary was finally opened again and it was really nice to have aircon! (: we discussed the handicraft at aunty susan's shop after lunch at pastamania. in between we got really really sad and discouraged and but i think we forgot to pray. people kept giving advice (thanks alot!) but the whole point was that we were missing out on the Lord's divine strength. i mean as we were perparing and everything the moral of the skit never hit me until now. i knew it well but i never really thought about it. that God has His own plan for all of us and we should surrender each part. just like what becky said, that we tend to hold on to certain parts of our lives. so i listened to her and that day i told the Lord to snatch away those parts of my life i was unwilling to let go of. ok so when we reached her shop aunty susan nicely gave us blue shorts to wear cos our jeans were wet in the rain. so me charmaine and nadia were walking around in identical blue shorts xD plus i was wearing a blouse which so doesnt match shorts hahaha. nat kept wanting to go home as usual which he did. haha then went home with charmaine (: the train was empty! :D

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