trusting as the days go by..

Friday, March 28, 2008

hmm.. im feeling okay cos ): + (: = : mah haha

but first normal stuff in school!
nowadays its getting funnier especially with emily around (:
yesterday some acjc person came and started promoted the fun-o-rama thing at the table where we sitting..
some more before that we were thinking of what to say before he came alr!
but then unfortunately we didn't have time to think before he came and we had nothing to say.. so we were just laughing and emily asked if we could put back our plates and jac said she was going for the st nicks one alr.
but unfortunately we listened for like another 10mins until bell rang then no choice have to buy one. aiyo. then his lousy logic was quite illogical ):
but in the end we sold it to irina (: haha

): titration is getting quite annoying!
especially when you overshort the amount and then the colour changes to much.
and today somehow the biurette got problem, so even when i close the tap it still drips o.O
so since that potassium manganate thingy leaves a brown stain, i got brown stains on my hands ):
and then couldn't close the tap in time so i could only watch while that last teeny weeny drop fell in and ruined the correct colour totally D: haha but this is really a test of patience!

i think this few days i've gotten a lot of trials from God..
and QT doesn't seem that enjoyable anymore! maybe its spiritual dryness but i feel really funny inside.
and i think God really showed me over and over again through the trials how i am nothing without Him..
and it seems that all His answers to my prayers are either a wait or a no ):
but since God's plan is good there's a reason for everything, i guess..
so i can only trust. yup (:
haha hopefully since i met such trials, i'll enjoy QT once again after realising that God is the only one who can make all things possible.. (:
==

Because He lives I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives.

8:26 PM

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

lousy math. ): oh wells.
on a happier note, this morning i woke up myself and so i prayed.
and so volleyball assessment went surprisingly well and so on :D
yup, charmaine, starting the day with prayer really is helpful! cos you find you're not alone inside anymore and you know God's always guiding you through! (:and you become a much better person and you will remember that God's always watching..

LJ was fun lah.. as in some (i repeat, some) stuff was more fun than what the title/ name suggests! (:
and my bio journal still has the smell of insect repellent D:

monday
): sigh our standards for a movie went drastically low..
cos at first there was some black and white powerpoint thing so,
shiyun: i'll be happy if the people start moving can!
me: i'll be very happy if there's colour can!
haha. but the director's kind of good. can make the whole sec 3 level stare at a black projector screen half the time -.- aiyo.
but in the end, i couldn't hear anything, i couldn't see anything, i couldn't understand anything and i didn't learn anything! wow. (:
haha but partly cos i was stoning through the whole thing and after that too!

tuesday
ah this was what's fun (: governance and the civic district..
we went to lots of cool places!
at the old parliament house, i sat on then-pm's lee kuan yew's seat (: whee.
and then at the supreme court, we went into a courtroom. but it wasn't as exciting cos it was quite high-tech and all.. the old supreme court would have been nicer! (:
anyway the supreme court is transparent (like you can see through to coleman road!) to show the transparency of the legal system (:
and the viewing gallery at the disc (hahaha the modern take on the dome of the old supreme court!) is really scary and the escalators too..
yay but it was funfun (:

today
apart from math SA, i guess everything went well..
i just hope that i don't fail it.. :/
and my last cooking lesson of my whole sec school life just ended today ):
): ): ): im still sad over math. but maybe God wants to teach me to work harder.. and yeah, i should learn!

8:26 PM

Sunday, March 23, 2008

thursday
went to kampong glam and then to lower peirce reservoir (:
haha but it was kind of sad cos we saw two goldfishes dying at the same time in the reservoir.. aww..
there were struggling and some mean pondskator even tried eating them o.O and finally they died ):
haha but moving on, we saw really cool plants/ insects!
the beauty of God's creation :D

friday
what other nicer way could there be to spend a holiday than to do math -.-
but the message was really impactful and i kind of felt shocked/ guilty and just some weird feeling i cant describe :/
oh wells i think i better try and stop sinning seeing how much pain Christ went through on the cross!

saturday
bs was kind of quiet seeing only me and charmaine and ann were present (:
but it was good lah and i thought of one major, though hidden fear already..
anyway i was worrying through the first part of LTF hoping i wouldn't forget what i was supposed to pray for or something, and though i prayed before that, i kind of took my worries back from God ):
but in the end God was merciful and i didnt have any major embarassment or something.. (:

sunday
(:
im really happy so whatever that happened after it doesnt really matter (:
haha but seriously i don't think it's anyone's fault lah..
but it's everyone's fault hehe.. kidding (:

When I survey the wondrous cross
on which the Prince of Glory died;
my richest gain I count but loss,
and pour contempt on all my pride.

Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast,
save in the death of Christ, my God;
all the vain things that charm me most,
I sacrifice them to his blood.

See, from his head, his hands, his feet,
sorrow and love flow mingled down.
Did e'er such love and sorrow meet,
or thorns compose so rich a crown.

Were the whole realm of nature mine,
that were an offering far too small;
love so amazing, so divine,
demands my soul, my life, my all.

9:56 PM

Thursday, March 20, 2008

haha i think im blogging too often for my own good :/ but oh wells i finished copying my physics notes so it's okay right? right. (: today i had no school cos the sec 3 LJ schedule is so slack -.-
yay :D
but yeah i cleared half of the huge pile of math (: yay again. thank God for the strength! (but there's still the other half to go :/)
anyway we got our 3rd class boooking in 3 months leh.. so saddening.. ):
haha today it was raining, and it reminded me of the time when i was walking on the track and it started raining.. and there was this point where one side of you would be raining and the other wouldn't! :D and i was always wondering how it would feel like cos you get this quite often in the car! but now i have felt it in person (: yay.

3 yays in a post (:

12:17 AM

Monday, March 17, 2008

haha today was such a slack day.. got 4 free blocks :D so cool right
but i didn't really use them wisely (other than doing my chem assignment which was holiday homework and trying but failing to print my yue du bao gao ): lousy school printer) heh :/
then went to library to read baby blues cos we were just too bored and then to subway for lunch :D
borders' stuff is not very cheap huh. :/ haha the notebooks are seriously not-worth-it
and then i had guitar so yeah, i went back to school (:
and cheryl koh, please REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR GUITAR COSTUME TOMORROW! remember ah.. don't forget ok! or else anna will kill you (or rather me) :p kidding lah. but still MUST bring okay (: patpat now that's a goodgood girl :D

i really hope that i'll be really prepared by the time easter comes :D
it's really important to keep close to God now.. i mean not only now, but everyday, but yeah especially now. okay, im not making sense.. but i guess you get it (: haha which equals more meaningful QTs and prayers :p

and im still left with the same amount of math homework from friday leh D:

9:05 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008

D: bruises from crawling under tables multiple times..
heh and guitar camp got cancelled cos of safety reasons ): waste of planning and all haha

ohoh xinle, i got a weird dream too!
all i remembered was the last part..that i got really really really angry at someone (shan't mention names but seriously, it's not someone i'll everr get angry with in real life) cos of what she said to me.. so i dreamt that i cried and cried until i became crazy (?!) like literally.
and apparently at that time there's some funny machine where you can transfer good characteristics from another person.. it's like you insert some cd-like thingy from that person into the machine and it gets transferred to whoever is sitting on the chair..
and yeah, i got stuff like patience and calmness from some people (shan't mention names again :D) and then i got woken up :/
haha most of the stuff can't be described in words! what am i thinking? i don't know either.. i think i can go write fantasy novels or something from my dreams hahahaha

D: left with math assignment/ FA/ hardhard questions which i'll never know how to do unless i go ask someone.. so its just MATH MATH and more MATH
but i had fun cancelling homework from the originally long list (:

okay, there's still LJ week (:
but after that, its mugging time, full-force! haha and im not looking forward to that (what with SAs every single week D:)
haha but till then i'll just look forward to whatever's worth looking forward to..
(:

10:16 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

i've been staring at the codes but i can't seem to change the font of the links and i don't know why either D:
haha anyway i think the holidays have been passing okay so far..
at least i've managed to work doubly hard in the day and slack at night, so i won't regret when this short week is over (: haha thank God cos this isn't exactly the usual me!
but i've decided to work harder and not be the lazy person i was in sec 1 and sec 2 heh..

yups i found this passage from our daily bread which i found in my drawer (somehow it wasn't with the rest)! it's quite an old issue but then i just kept reading until i found this:

As believers in Christ, we shouldn't have to be forced or tricked into doing what's right. In fact, obedience can be drained of its significance if we obey only out of obligation or duty. Our desire should be to do what is pleasing to our Lord because we love Him (John 14:21).
Let's do what's right out of a heart of gratitude for His grace to us.

i guess a lot of times i try to obey and i tell myself i have to do it because we have to be examples of Christ and be a good testimony to people around us..i mean its not wrong but i never really thought that yeah, sometimes it's really only out of obligation or responsibility and not love for the Lord!
okay sometimes i must admit that there's this little thought that comes which says: maybe if i follow God's commandment in this, He'll answer my prayers? :/
hmm..i think i should start truly obeying God out of love and gratitude for Him (: and of course i'll have to pray that He'll help me!

Our motive for obedience
When trying to keep God's ways
Is purest when we seek to please,
To love and give Him praise. (:

8:13 PM

Sunday, March 9, 2008

OSL camp was really, overall, a good experience (:
haha can't say much cos if the juniors know then it won't be a selection camp anymore right?
anyway everyone's experience is unique and we all learn different things..
but i guess it did teach me a lot of things, even though the activities were already planned by the mentors and all!
and it really got me to know how i react in certain situations..and understand myself better
and im not being politically correct here ok (:
yay and i got to know a lot more people and i also got to work together again with some of my not-very-close-in-sec-1 class mates (:
so even though i may not get in (after all, it's already i God's plan) at least i didn't waste my time because i did get stuff out of it all :D
mosquito bites and muscle aches ):

the power of salvation (:
today everywhere i went on sunday was related to salvation, i mean cat class and message (:
prayer & preparation(before sunday), diligence (during message) and practice..
i must admit i haven't been doing all..
as in i don't go and check what is the scripture text on saturday and read it to prepare..
maybe i should start (:

lunch at waffletown
then we heard a blind person playing a song and charmaine was so funny :D she says:
sounds familiar -> i think i heard it before -> maybe played it before! -> eh i played it today! HAHAHA blur pok (:
and debs try to be optimistic..
the sun's so bright everyday :D
remember the verse on not letting the sun set when you still have anger in your heart!
so try and settle this okayy..yay (:

10:01 PM

Thursday, March 6, 2008

i have so much stuff to remember!
and i can't wait to start ticking off my mental list tomorrow :/

camp camp (:

9:53 PM

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

on monday we continued guitar costume tagging..
and then we got some wrong! also don't know why :/
then have to relook everything again..
i dont like tags like BPS13 anymore ):
but at least there was aircon and kind of wasted alot of time chatting
but then there were no lights! ): lousy lousy guitar room..

oh and today was so funny :D
cos peixin was laughing at emily!
and i was laughing at peixin for laughing..
then mrs mak said "magdalene and peixin have been laughing non-stop for very long already ah!"
and then we didn't stop until we got stomach ache HAAHAH

haha i was a teacher for 1 hour yesterday (:
cos mrs alfie didn't come..and so she ask me to go through the answers for grammar with the class!
and then everyone was all like "good afternoon miss huang" HAHA
and they keep asking me whether can go toilet -.-
reminds me of the time when it happened to shi jin :D
but it was quite fun lah..then can use the visualiser! and they kept telling me to slow down -.-
but there was so much answers to go through!

GOD'S BOXES
I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the bow with the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with me."

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole? "
My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."
(i think it's quite a nice anology (: and its good for exam encouragement!)

6:26 PM

Sunday, March 2, 2008

IM BOREDDDDD
IM BOREDDDDDD
IM BOREDDDDDDD
IM BOREDDDDDDDD :/

i don't like waiting! hahaha
am i not spending my time wisely? hmm..
faster can the cmps proposal come faster? argh! :/
i can't wait to print!

ohoh and should i come after camp for camp echo dinner?
but i'll feel weird!

9:36 PM

i dont feel like blogging lehh :/

anyway i think that i've broken the 10 commandments millions of times..
somemore sin is also committed not only when you do what you're not supposed to do..
but also when you don't do what you're supposed to do!
which makes me commit a lot of sins :/
like not loving God with all my heart, soul and mind?
sigh but its good to have the assurance that Christ died on the cross to free us from the bondage of sin (:

anyway went to waffletown for lunch (:
and i think deb is sooo random! worse than me.. (:
hahaha and shuyi and her gender discrimination!
but then we girls have to accept it..maybe its cos we come from girls' schools so we're used to doing all the stuff ourselves
(which includes moving chairs/ carrying boxes or heavy stuff -.-/ cleaning/ packing..basically all the hard work!)
then when it comes to church we're not allowed to do so..
hahaha but God created guys to be stronger? so i guess they should do lor..
anyway its pride right heh (:
so right..its okay shuyi, if we cant do anything in logistics!
there isnt exactly gender equality in this world whattt
but actually..i dont really care hahaha

ahh birthdays birthdays..why got so many! :/

5:46 PM